I have to admit I have a love/hate relationship with Facebook. I have really enjoyed reconnecting with friends over the past 10 years since joining the social media craze. It is the competitive nature of the beast that makes me retreat. I sometimes feel that a lot of members are trying to one-up each other or show how perfect their families and lives are. This has never been a characteristic of mine but I am sure I have done my fair share of bragging as well.
On a whim, I shared the article on my personal Facebook page. After clicking “post” I felt a bit of nervous angst. I wasn’t sure what kind of feedback the article would receive. Within minutes, my notifications started buzzing with some of the most beautiful comments I have ever received. There was so much support and encouragement for both the story and our family. I was overwhelmed, in a good way. I knew that I had made the right decision when I decided to share the piece. Some of my Facebook friends did not know our family’s story into the depths of Traumatic Brain Injury and some had been right there with us from day one cheering and praying for Middle Miss’ recovery.
I think it also was a tiny step of putting my writing out there and seeing how it was received. I think fear has been holding me back while trying to write our book. Fear that it won’t get published, it won’t get read, readers won’t resonate with the story. I have finally embraced that no matter what I have to try. I have to write and try to get it out to the masses. It doesn’t matter if no one likes it. As we started to talk about this project our goal was to give other families a lifeline while going through a devastating event such as ours. When this happened to us 16 years ago there wasn’t a guidebook telling us how to proceed, what types of specialists or doctors we would need, etc. We didn’t have the resources that are prevalent in today’s world.
Now the hardest thing is for me to stay focused and allow the time for the writing to happen. This has been such a hard thing to accomplish lately. I need to put aside other thoughts and responsibilities and treat this as my job. I have really tried to keep a full day or two each week to fully devote to writing. That means no volunteering at hospitals or schools, no lunches with friends, and no running errands or shopping. This last one has been hard because I have to fit the food shopping and regular errands in somewhere.
I need to delegate and try to combine errands with other activities which usually requires a lot of planning. Does anyone have suggestions? It would be nice if I could hire an assistant but that definitely won’t be happening.