Sharing on Facebook

I have to admit I have a love/hate relationship with Facebook.  I have really enjoyed reconnecting with friends over the past 10 years since joining the social media craze.  It is the competitive nature of the beast that makes me retreat.  I sometimes feel that a lot of members are trying to one-up each other or show how perfect their families and lives are.  This has never been a characteristic of mine but I am sure I have done my fair share of bragging as well.

I recently had my article published on the Thrive Global website.  The article had previously been published on  Medium and TBI Hope.

On a whim, I shared the article on my personal Facebook page.  After clicking “post” I felt a bit of nervous angst.  I wasn’t sure what kind of feedback the article would receive.  Within minutes, my notifications started buzzing with some of the most beautiful comments I have ever received.  There was so much support and encouragement for both the story and our family.  I was overwhelmed, in a good way.  I knew that I had made the right decision when I decided to share the piece.  Some of my Facebook friends did not know our family’s story into the depths of Traumatic Brain Injury and some had been right there with us from day one cheering and praying for Middle Miss’ recovery.

I think it also was a tiny step of putting my writing out there and seeing how it was received.  I think fear has been holding me back while trying to write our book.  Fear that it won’t get published, it won’t get read, readers won’t resonate with the story.  I have finally embraced that no matter what I have to try.  I have to write and try to get it out to the masses.  It doesn’t matter if no one likes it.  As we started to talk about this project our goal was to give other families a lifeline while going through a devastating event such as ours.  When this happened to us 16 years ago there wasn’t a guidebook telling us how to proceed, what types of specialists or doctors we would need, etc. We didn’t have the resources that are prevalent in today’s world.

Now the hardest thing is for me to stay focused and allow the time for the writing to happen.  This has been such a hard thing to accomplish lately.  I need to put aside other thoughts and responsibilities and treat this as my job.  I have really tried to keep a full day or two each week to fully devote to writing.  That means no volunteering at hospitals or schools, no lunches with friends, and no running errands or shopping.  This last one has been hard because I have to fit the food shopping and regular errands in somewhere.

I need to delegate and try to combine errands with other activities which usually requires a lot of planning.  Does anyone have suggestions?  It would be nice if I could hire an assistant but that definitely won’t be happening.


You’re Fat!

Those are words no one wants to hear. But when you are a mom who was teased at a very young age about her extra weight, went through an anorexia/binging phase in high school, gained more than the freshman 15 in college, and your daughter tells you these words were directed her way your heart splits open.

Having experienced body shaming for most of my life I have tried to be very cognizant of the words I use around my daughters. My mother used to say “If we could cut off part of your backside, we would have a really good steak”. I can’t imagine ever saying these words to anyone.

It’s no wonder I had issues.

Since becoming a mother over 21 years ago I have tried to model healthy body image. Both Mike and I have shown them healthy eating habits eating most of our meals at home. The only times we eat at fast foods restaurants is when we are traveling and our choices are very limited. We have shown them, through action, how exercise has helped us maintain a healthy lifestyle as well.

None of the 3 misses are natural athletes, they take after me in this area, but we have enrolled them in soccer, softball, dance, cross country, swimming, and martial arts classes. They don’t seem to enjoy exercise and we sometimes have to really push Middle Miss to do something but we have given them the tools. I am always secretly jumping for joy when Big Miss mentions attending a yoga class, one of my favorite exercise choices.

So, when little Miss came home from school and told me the boy who has been harassing her all year said she was fat my heart broke. It took me back to the school playground when kids would taunt me with, “Kelly her belly is so full of jelly” or “You have such a pretty face but…”.

I had noticed that in the past year she had been gaining weight, especially in the tummy area. Middle Miss had always been a bit heavier than her peers but she had been like that since she was born so I figured it was her body build.


Little Miss, on the other hand, was petite for most of her life. At her, one year check up the pediatrician told me to keep breastfeeding her since she hadn’t gained enough weight. Her feet have always been much smaller than her peers, she was a little peanut compared to her sisters.

During her checkup last year I asked the pediatrician about her weight after asking Little Miss to leave the room since I didn’t want her to hear the conversation. The doctor did some bloodwork after I expressed some concern about a thyroid condition which I have. The tests were negative and the doctor said she wasn’t concerned about her weight.  She commented that a lot of girls this age put on a little weight due to the hormonal changes that are occurring.

We have tried to get her more exercise but it’s been hard since she has so many anxieties. She doesn’t want to play any sports having played soccer for a number of seasons and leaving once her age group transitioned to the larger field. She still refuses to put her head underwater or get her face wet even though we have tried various swimming programs. She has refused to ride a bike, ice skate, or roller skate fearing a fall. The only activity she has continued is dance and that is precarious at the moment.


I have done some research about the best way to talk to your daughter about her weight and I am at a loss. All the experts recommend emphasizing healthy eating and exercise and not using the word diet. We have done this all her life.

I recently read a study that was conducted in England which encourages parents to speak about a child’s weight up front. The researchers believe the reason the United States has an obesity epidemic is the lack of conversations about weight. This could be the case but I am cautious with that due to my experience.

I did read another article that suggested speaking to a child about this issue by asking her how the comment made her feel. I get this. I can envision asking her, “so how did the Boy’s comment make you feel?” The only thing that worries me is that whenever I ask her these questions she will usually respond with, “I don’t know”. How do I follow up after that comment? I don’t know where I can go from there.

Have you ever been on the receiving end of this talk?  I have but it wasn’t handled correctly.  Any advice to share with this Mom?

Word of the Year

As most of you have probably heard over and over since December one of the trends is to designate a word of the year.  I originally didn’t have a plan to do this but after giving it a lot of thought and reading how other’s word of the year guided them through the past I decided to consider what word I would use.

Since I am trying to focus a lot of my time on finishing a draft of our book (read more here) my first thought was “NO”.  The reasoning behind this was a valid reason to say no to any further commitments.  If I said that was my word then I had the perfect excuse to not commit to anything new.  It all sounded great to me until I read other’s words.  I know, I know, I shouldn’t be worrying about what anyone else is doing or worry what others will think, etc… but, I still can’t stop thinking that way.  I think “no” sounds negative and would that come off to others as a “Debbie Downer” attitude, etc.  It wouldn’t be intended as a negative but that is what I perceived others would think.  Again, I know I shouldn’t worry what is inside someone else’s head but that is my genetic makeup.

So, after much thought and guesswork, I came up with another word that I thought would help me yet not sound so negative.  I am hoping it will help steer me in the right direction and give me a reason to not accept every request I receive to help out with this or volunteer here, etc.

My word for 2018 is PRIORITIZE.  

I am giving myself permission to PRIORITIZE what is important to me and my family.  It will not help me or my family to volunteer to run a committee for the school.  In fact, if anything it will only hurt my goals and probably the well being of my family because I will be too stressed.  I can say no to the lunch date since I need to use that time to write. The more I think about this word the more I have embraced it.   I consulted Wikipedia and the definition is the action that arranges items or activities in order of importance.  

A perfect fit for me!  I will try and update how my word of 2018 is working for me.  I am hoping it will give me enough permission to do the things that are most important to me and the ones I love.

Do you have a word for 2018?  If so, I would love to hear how you came up with yours and how it is working out.











Beamer Learns About Traumatic Brain Injury

Sometimes you never know how your connections will work.  A local author and I had become “facebook friends” since we both knew another family who had experienced the terrible loss of their child.  I followed her and noticed she was continuing to write books in the “Tell Me Town” series she created.  The series was born out of her desire to give back to the community and help others.

Cindy Chambers was serving on the board of a local hospital and while on a tour she noticed the fear on both patient’s and parent’s faces as she walked through the emergency room.  She thought to herself, “Oh, I wish there was a book that could explain what was happening to a child in words they would understand along with characters who were relatable”.

She left that day and soon after the book series was born.  The books feature two main characters Kyle and his dog Beamer.  They live in a fictional town and have learned about the emergency room, fire safety, Cancer diagnosis, Diabetes I and II diagnoses, and Alzheimer’s just to name a few.  Cindy works along with the experts in each field to understand the complexities of each issue and writes a story kids will relate to and understand.

About two years ago I had noticed that she released a book about a friend with special needs. On a whim I sent her a message and asked if she had ever considered writing a book about Traumatic Brain Injury.  She instantly replied that she had been asked before and would love to meet so we could discuss.

We met at a local coffee shop and as I expected she was absolutely delightful.  She listened attentively to our family’s story and had some great ideas.  We planned to meet again soon and to bring Middle Miss into the conversation.

Our next meeting occurred at our home and Middle Miss and Mike were brought into the conversation.  We met a number of times to discuss the story and finally had a book.  Cindy consulted with a local neurologist to understand what goes on in the brain when it experiences such an injury and works with her illustrator to bring the characters and words to life.

Ironically, the book was released the day before our 16th anniversary of the accident.  Neither the publisher or Cindy knew the date so I call it serendipity.  Although, this is not Middle Miss’ full story she contributed a lot of her symptoms and stories to bring the book to life.  She was also able to contribute a statement in the book and Mike and I did as well.

We are so grateful for this opportunity as it gives Middle Miss a way to get part of her story out there.  We also had the opportunity to meet the neurologist who helped on the project and Cindy presented Middle Miss with the most beautiful award.  It was truly a very special day.

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The book is available on Amazon.  If you purchase the book we would love a review and I would love to know what you think.






pexels-photo-46274.jpegHappy New Year to all of you!  Yes, I know I am a week late.  Sounds like the story of my life.

Mike and I have been trying to put together a book for quite some time.  Some of it came out of trying to keep a record or journal of our family’s story and survival through the abyss known as Traumatic Brain Injury.  Whenever I would speak at events for either Brain Injury Services, Inc. or the Trauma Survivors Network  I would be approached by audience members who kept commenting that I should write a book.  Apparently, a story about a mom and daughter both have brain injuries from the same incident isn’t very common.  Go Figure!

Anyway, we have put the bare bones together and I was getting inpatient wondering if we had something publishable so I contacted a hybrid publisher.  At the time I didn’t realize what a hybrid publisher was but it is between a traditional publishing house such as Random House and self-publishing.  A hybrid asks for some money upfront from the author but the work is still owned by the author and the company helps with editing, typesetting, printing, marketing, and distribution.

I was very surprised when we were offered a contract to go ahead.  We have decided to spend a little more time refining the book over the next few months before going ahead.  There are so many things to still figure out such as how the 3 misses will take the news.  This will especially affect Middle Miss!  We want to lay out the story as honestly as we can and some of the things we have to share she may not like.  I guess we can cross that bridge when we need.

If anyone has any experience publishing a book I would love to hear about it; both the good and bad.  I am a big believer in the more you know the better the decision.



The Birth of Joy

I worked on this piece for a very long time; it had been in my head for so long and took awhile to refine before feeling comfortable about sharing it with the world.

I took a chance on an online site and was thrilled when it was picked up by one and published (

I submitted to another publication which has both a digital and print copy circulation and was published in their June 2017 issue (

It felt so good to get this piece circulated and out to other readers.  As expected, once I was able to get some successes the writing has increased, though not so much on this blog.  I hope to improve the frequency of writing here over the next few months and look for some upcoming links to a website my husband and I developed after talking about it for years.

Let me know what you think in the comments.






The Truth Eventually Reveals Itself

maxresdefaultI kept hearing stories about facebook friends who had DNA testing to determine their ancestry and found it fascinating.  So many were finding little traces of unknown heritage that had somehow never been spoken through generations of stories.  I was HOOKED!

At Christmas, Mike gave me a kit as a gift.  I was so excited!  I couldn’t wait to complete it and send it off for processing.  For those of you unfamiliar with these, a small tube is included where you spit some saliva.  Seal it and complete the accompanying paperwork. All of these are placed in a postage paid envelope and mailed it to the lab.  I used but there are a number of similar services that conduct the same or similar tests.

I received periodic updates explaining where my tests were during the process and as it so happened this was a popular holiday gift so there was more of a back log than usual.

Approximately six weeks later I received an email late at night detailing my results.  I must have been in shock because when I look back on my reaction it was one of disbelief.  I had always believed that I was 50 percent Swedish since my paternal grandparents immigrated from Sweden and 25 percent Irish and 25 percent English from my mother’s parents who were also immigrants.

The following day I sent Mike a text as he was travelling for work. I included the results and he immediately responded asking if I could talk. I could immediately detect from his tone of voice that he was quite shocked.  He wanted to know what I thought before saying anything else.  I told him that apparently the man I always thought was my biological father was, in fact, NOT. My results indicated that I am 49 percent Irish and 48 percent English.  The remaining 3 percent was a mix of others but not a drop of Swedish.

The thoughts that circulated through my head were so numerous and yet I never once doubted the results.  In fact, a lot of things became clearer. When my father passed away, 6 years after my mother, I had the unfortunate task of cleaning out their house.  While going through his dresser I found a manila envelope containing a number of documents.  One of these was my ‘parents’ marriage certificate. I read it at least 10 times before calling Mike in to look at it.  They DID NOT get married until I was 24 years old! There was also a letter from an attorney stating that they lived as husband and wife from 1964 until April 1989 believing that a common law marriage was legal.  I am sure you can imagine the shock!

So, when I found out the man who I always thought was my father, was not, I did not experience the same level of shock that would be expected . Since my brother’s birthday was the following day I decided to call him and ask him what he knew.  He is 15 years older than me.  His father walked out when he was about 2 years old and my mother and he never heard from him again. Though we are technically half siblings I never referred to him as such and have always felt that he is my brother whether half or not.  I was hoping his memory would help explain what happened.  There was, and still is, a part of me that wonders if he knew or suspected about this all these years.

When I told him my news he sounded surprised. I asked if he remembered anyone in our mother’s life prior to my birth.  There was some silence and he asked if  he could try to think about it to jog his memory since this all occurred a long time ago.

The following day he called me and relayed that yes our mother was involved with someone prior to “marrying” my father.  He explained that my mother and “father” had dated for quite a while and one day she told him that they would no longer see Lenny.  We were always told to not ask too many questions so he didn’t.  My mother dated some men and there was one she was dating more seriously than others.  My brother would spend a lot of weekends at our aunt’s home and when he returned one Sunday evening my mother explained that she & Lenny got married.  A few days later they told him that they were moving to another state because she was pregnant and they needed a house with more space.

He further explained that once the move occurred our mother became a very different person.  She no longer went out every weekend.  She stopped working since she was now “married”.  She didn’t see her extended family as much and as the years went on saw them less and less.

I have had this information for a while now and have gone through a lot of emotions.  I started out very confused which turned to anger and then to empathy.  I feel sorry for my mother in a lot of ways.  She had to hide two large secrets and she most likely went through her life terrified that someone would uncover these.  I can not imagine living with so much secrecy.  What an incredible burden.

On the other hand, why didn’t she ever tell me the truth?  There are medical issues I may need to be aware of.  I was an adult with my own family when my mother passed away so she had plenty of opportunity to come clean. I have also wondered why my father never told me the truth once my mother passed away.  I am convinced he knew!

This information does solve a few questions that I have wrestled to understand.  I never felt as though I fit in and wondered what was “missing”.  My mother always held others back and would never let anyone get to know her probably in fear that her secret would be revealed.  I had an eye condition when I was four years old (strabismus- which is genetic yet no one in either family ever experienced it.  Middle miss also was diagnosed with strabismus at three and had surgery to correct it at four, just like me.  After a miscarriage I had some blood work evaluated and discovered that I had a clotting disorder (  The doctors explained that you inherit the gene from a parent.  My mother was deceased but I asked my father and he immediately got very angry with me.  He refused to discuss it and told me he had no idea what I was talking about.

I have reconnected with some of my cousins since this started which I am really grateful. I wish my parents had explained all of this to me prior to their deaths so I could understand what happened and listen to the reasons for their secrets.  I would have had the opportunity to grieve and heal with them supporting me.  The piece I hope everyone takes away from this story is that it is so important to tell the truth whenever possible.  Lies fester and build and hurt so many.  The truth is always the best way!









One of the Hardest

I am about to bear it all right now.  One of the toughest things I have had to deal with is loneliness.  How could I be lonely if I live with one cat, one dog, three children, and one husband?  Well, that’s a great question.  I am not deprived of contact with human beings or animals; I AM LONELY!

According to Wikpedia,  “loneliness is a complex and usually unpleasant emotional response to isolation. Loneliness typically includes anxious feelings about a lack of connection or communication with other beings, both in the present and extending into the future. As such, loneliness can be felt even when surrounded by other people. The causes of loneliness are varied and include social, mental, emotional, or even physical factors. Research has shown that loneliness is prevalent throughout society, including people in marriages, relationships, families, veterans, and those with successful careers.”

I have felt this way on and off all of my life but it has taken me a very long time to recognize it or define the feeling.  It hits me very hard when I try to have a conversation with someone and tell them about Middle Miss and some of her disappointments or how her life is shaping up and they have nothing to offer.  Instead of saying nothing, or at the very least, “I am sorry, this sucks, etc.”, they turn the subject around to a friend’s  high school son who had numerous ACL injuries and his “career” is over.  Seriously?  That’s all you can come up with?  Is that supposed to make me feel better?  That young man still has a great future ahead of him.  He can go on to a four year college if he chooses and live an independent life.  A hurt knee won’t jeopardize his education.

These are probably the times I feel the most lonely.  No one else has empathy for our situation.  No one else feels the pain I feel.  As this keeps occurring especially during this graduation season, I feel it even more.

Middle Miss’ future was stolen from her while riding in the back seat, strapped into her five point harness car seat, singing along to a Blues Clues CD on the way to her sister’s Nutcracker rehearsal.  Her future will never, ever be the same.  As the surgeon in the hospital said to us the morning after the accident, “The little girl you had before will never return”.


Speaking Her Truth

As some of you may or may not know March is Brain Injury Awareness Month and this past week it was Brain Injury Awareness Day on Capitol Hill.  Congressman Bill Pascrell of the great state of New Jersey founded The Brain Injury Task Force in 2000 and he continues to co-chair it along with Congressman Thomas Rooney of Florida.  The Brain Injury Association of America sponsors this event with a vendor fair in the morning, a panel of speakers in the afternoon, and a reception in the early evening.  The staff is also on hand to coordinate lobbying efforts by attendees and they can help coordinate these visits.

I joined the Brain Injury Council six months ago just as the planning for this got underway.  It had already been decided that the theme would be Pediatric Brain Injury which seemed to be a perfect “fit” for my interests.  I have only attended the event once which was last year since it takes a lot of coordination with my family and it is a VERY LONG day traveling to the Capitol and meeting with representatives and there is A LOT of walking.

Middle Miss was asked if she would like to speak on the panel since the organizers were trying to find someone who had a brain injury during their childhood and was in the process of transitioning from high school to adulthood.  Her name came to the attention of the organizers through the Executive Director of the Brain Injury Association of Virginia.  I sit on the board and she was aware that Middle Miss had attended the Youth Leadership Forum this past summer.

Middle Miss was asked to speak about her journey as well as touch on the services she had received over the years including what supports she will continue to need as she move on from public school.  We kept reminding her of the date and as each week went by I would ask her if the speech was written.  Imagine our surprise when the Saturday prior to the event the speech hadn’t been started.  She worked on it all weekend and as you can imagine this involved a lot of grumbling, feet stomping, huffy breaths, and breaks.  Finally, the evening before the event we had a speech!  Nothing like waiting until the ninth hour.

The morning of the event we were all racing around since we had to leave the house right after little Miss got on the bus at 7:20 a.m.  As anyone with a teenage girl knows they are rarely on time to leave the house and Middle Miss is notorious for changing her outfit as we are about to leave.  So it shouldn’t have been much of a surprise when she had to change.

The weather was quite brisk this morning and as we walked up to the Capitol and entered the Rayburn House Office Building we were quite wind blown.  Middle Miss chose to attend the first Congressional visit of the day along with some Virginia state employees and the Government Affairs Director of the Brain Injury Association.  Following this visit, her anxiety began to increase.  We walked around the very crowded and loud vendor fair and attempted to speak with a few people but she had to leave the area as it was too overwhelming and stimulating of an environment with the lighting, noise, high ceilings and wall to wall people.  Anyone requiring the use of a wheelchair or cane would never have been able to navigate this area.

Finally, the time to head to the room for the panel arrived and we attempted to get her acclimated to the environment nice and early, however, our attempts were thwarted when we all had to exit the room so staff could take away the tables and set the room up for the panel.  Once this all had been completed we entered the room along with the audience members therefore not giving Middle Miss time to acclimate her herself.  What do they say about the best-laid plans?

The moderator who I described to her as a teddy bear proved me right; he really took care of her by making sure she was comfortable and rearranging the speakers so Middle Miss would go second in the lineup of five.  He later explained that he did this on purpose knowing that her story would prove to be the most impactful since she was the only survivor speaking.  She was also seated next to the kindest gentleman anyone would ever meet.  A psychiatrist with the Department of Defense and a career military man he made our girl feel so comfortable which we were forever grateful.

I am not speaking as a proud mama, which of course I was, but she totally ROCKED that room.  She spoke so clearly and eloquently and with so much heart and authenticity.  Her talk was at times sad, devastating, raw, and always truthful.  As she finished we were shocked and awed to see that the audience, us included, gave her a standing ovation.  I could not believe the overwhelming surge of pride, elation, sadness, and awe that came over me all at once.  Here was this beautiful girl of mine, once clinging to the threads of life, speaking in front of one hundred plus people in the Rayburn House Building.  Validation does not come any better than that.  As we all returned to our seats the moderator mentioned that her two proud parents were sitting in the front and the woman next to me turned and said, “that is your daughter, oh my gosh, she made me cry, what a beautiful young lady she is and so brave to share her story here.”

Like I said, validation and the feeling that all of our hard work was beginning to pay off was overwhelming.image-1054_westfrontwithtulipshorizontal-4149



Silver Linings

Sometimes while in the throes of trauma we don’t have the ability to notice the silver linings in the clouds. I learned this in the aftermath of our accident; the realization that we had so many wonderful people who came out in support of our family.  We received cards from friends and families, pictures from children we knew as well as children who heard our story and wanted to do something.  Soon Middle Miss’s hospital room was decorated in vibrant colors and images.  While in a coma the doctors recommended that we play soft music that Middle Miss enjoyed listening to as a way to reach her and hopefully stimulate her brain.   A truly wonderful friend found a CD that included songs with her name in it. What a truly wonderful gift.

Former neighbors came by and dropped off bags full of snacks for both Mike and I because they knew from experience when a child is in the hospital parents do not want to leave to get something to eat in fear that something will happen when they are not “on watch”.  Home cooked meals were delivered to our home for Big Miss and her Grandmother who was helping out and to the hospital for us so we didn’t forget to take care of ourselves.  Friends and neighbors were offering to help take care of Big Miss so her routine could be as close to normal as possible.  They understood that a 5 year old still needs a steady routine no matter what.

Our advocacy for Middle Miss began on day one in the hospital.  Prior to this, I was not very assertive.  I wasn’t a pushover but I didn’t always speak up when I should.  Well, having your child in a coma will definitely bring all that out.  Mike and I started advocating for her immediately.  We questioned the doctors, demanded answers when our questions were ignored, fought her transfer to another unit until she was off the ventilator, demanded second opinions, and the list goes on and on.  Through this I learned how to become an advocate and little did I know that I would become such a huge advocate for her and others suffering from brain injury.  Prior to our accident we didn’t know anything about brain injury and became quick studies to ensure she received the help she needed and deserved.

During the 10 long days Middle Miss was in the hospital and prior to entering inpatient rehabilitation so many people approached and told me how strong I was.  I thanked them but thought deep down that I had them fooled.  I later realized how accurate they were. Friends and strangers saw something in me that I was unable to recognize.  I don’t know if I would have ever known my strength had I never been through a crisis like this.

Along with learning to advocate, I became a public speaker which shocks me to this day.  I never enjoyed speaking up in class and anytime we had a project that included a presentation I would rush through it just to get out of the spotlight.  The first time I was asked to tell my story I jumped at the chance.  I was nervous but confident in the information I had to pass on and each time I told the story it got easier and easier. There are times that I broke down, and it continues to happen today 14 years later, but I know my story is powerful and use it as a tool.  I am educating my audience about brain injury, the long term effects for both the injured and her family, the special education system, and many other aspects of this ordeal.

Marriages can be very fragile or they can be as tough as nails. Luckily, we were able to see that our marriage was tough and became stronger because of this as we worked as a team to get Middle Miss the proper care and help.  She made incredible progress once we entered the rehabilitation center and those around us thought it was due to the strong family unit we had.  Eventhough we chose to go to one that was in another state and further from our home we made sure that one of us was with her at all times.  We never left her side and continually pushed all the therapists and doctors to give her as much treatment as physically possible.  My heart breaks for all the children who don’t have this support.

I don’t talk about my religious beliefs or spirituality very much but during this time I also learned about the power of prayer and forgiveness.  A great number of people mentioned that we were in their prayers or their religious institution had put us in their prayer circle. For many years afterwards I would meet someone and once they heard our story they would confide that they prayed for us.  How awesome is that?

A few years after our accident I was sitting in church listening to a sermon about when all of a sudden I felt this rush of forgiveness for the man who caused the accident.  It was the most liberating feeling.   I was still sad.  I was still angry.  But I no longer felt revenge and the forgiveness allowed me to move on and be the best mom, wife and woman I could be.

Of course, I wish this tragic event never happened but I can’t take it away.  Instead I choose to move forward and help others navigate through their own stories.